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Saturday, November 29, 2003

Here's another lovely song I've discovered while listening to my older trove of CDs. If you're wondering, this one is in Spanish, and despite my best efforts to get it translated, I was fazed. Anyway, Google's translator tells me that its a song about a man's gratitude and undying love for the woman who has done for him much and has loved him for all he is. I wish I understood the song completely, as the song is very romantic and, ugh, sensual. :D

Title: Aléjate
Artist: Josh Groban (from his self-titled debut album)

Jamás sentí en el alma tanto amor
Y nadie mas que tú me amó
Por tí reí, lloré y renací también
Lo que tuve dí, por tenerte aquí.
Ya sé que despedirnos es mejor
Sufriendo pagaré mi error
Ya nada será igual, lo tengo que aceptar
Y hallar la fuerza en mí para este adiós

Aléjate, no puedo más
Ya no hay manera de volver el tiempo atrás
Olvídate de mí y déjame seguir a solas con mi soledad
Aléjate, ya dime adiós
Y me resignaré a seguir sin tu calor
Y jamás entenderé que fue lo que paso, si nada puedo hacer,
Aléjate

No voy a arrepentirme del ayer
Amando te hice mujer
Por el amor aquél, por serte siempre fiel
Hoy tengo que ser fuerte y aprender

Aléjate, no puedo más
Ya no hay manera de volver el tiempo atrás
Olvídate de mí y déjame seguir a solas con mi soledad
Aléjate, ya dime adiós
Y me resignaré a seguir sin tu calor
Y jamás entenderé que fue lo que paso, si nada puedo hacer,
Aléjate

Aléjate, no puedo más
Ya no hay manera de volver el tiempo atrás
Olvídate de mí y déjame seguir a solas con mi soledad
Aléjate, ya dime adiós
Y me resignaré a seguir sin tu calor
Y jamás entenderé que fue lo que paso, si nada puedo hacer,
Aléjate

Monday, November 24, 2003

here's something I found while lurking through the usual places I go when I'm online...

[thanks, athlonFan!]

Chance vs. Choice

When we meet the right person to love when we're at the right place, at the right time. That's chance. When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice, that's also chance. The difference is, what happens afterward? When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and then contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love the person, even with his faults, that's not chance. That's choice. When you choose to be with a person no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that last is truly a choice. A choice that we make. Regarding soulmates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: "Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen." I do believe that soulmates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soulmates by chance, but loving and staying with our soulmate is still a choice we have to make. " You can only see the true colors of a human if you taste its heart."

Oh, teh beautful! I feel *so* cheesy today.



Wonderful, wonderful Monday mornin'

I woke up nicely today. Sure, I failed to attend my fave subject, ENGLONE, but what the heck. It was a good morning, and together with nice weather, made for an even more picturesque morning while I was on my to that school-highlighted-by-green-and-white in Taft. Sigh. I wish more mornings were like these.

Anyway, after working for almost the entire weekend on my COMPRO2 machine project, I feel like hell. And sheesh, it's not even finished yet. Gee, I wonder if i'll ever get around to finishing it.

That's perhaps the reason why I easily noticed the beautiful morning... I'm badly in need of fresh air, after bouts of coding in C with some rounds of cool NFS Underground action in between.



NFS Underground

I find Underground the next-best-thing that ever happened to EA's popular 'Need for Speed' franchise. It combines the best of NFS' long-running arcadish-racing action with an entirely cool idea of flashy modifications that completes the NFSU experience. I find myself jazzing-up my Mazda Miata MX-5 in Underground a fun (and time-consuming) experience, as finding the best color schemage and the right amount of pizazz daunting even for a relative car enthusiast like me. Nevertheless, NFSU is fun. :D

I'll try to post some screenies of my l337 car both in action and on the [virtual] pavement. ;)

Monday, November 17, 2003

Another wonderful Michael Bublé CD!



I have this growing fascination for this young artist that is making headway into the top charts with his masterful crooning and signature sense of style. Lately, his new CD, "Totally Bublé", has been released recently, and I listened to it, and armed with a couple of hundred bucks, bought it.

Costing slightly less than typical foreign albums, (perhaps due to its lesser number of tracks) it was still a bit expensive when you factor in how much a track will cost individually. His first debut album's individual tracks cost only around PhP 40++ pesos per track, while this one's tracks costs around 50++. Figure that. :)

Anyway, it was a good album, and it even contains footages from an upcoming flick, "Totally Blonde", where Michael Bublé's songs are featured.

Sunday, November 16, 2003

Goooooooooooooood Mornin'!

Yeah! I'm roaring today. I just peeked out of my bedroom's windows (I'm currently in the 'other' house, so this figures.) and one thing was in my mind: The morning is very picturesque! Me lieks it. :)

Tired, exhausted, stressed... but still happy!

I just awoke from a nasty sleep on the living room couch (yeah, I forgot to get to bed *again*) and boy, my body terribly aches. My shoulders and arms are the most painful, perhaps from the cartloads of hollow blocks I hauled yesterday (according to my very rough estimates, the number of blocks I hauled and carried does range from a couple of hudred to about half a thousand.) Also, my nape and nose got a bit of burning too... :D Heeheeh.

But I was happy. In fact, it was perhaps the happy-warm-fuzzy-feeling you get from doing these kinds of things that push and inspire me to continue on, despite the obvious pain and exhaustion that I already feel when I was working. Nevertheless, it was good. I labored for something truly worthwhile. :))

Mom told me that where we worked wasn't all too far away from another of our decrepit and abandoned lots; it was only a couple of blocks, as that was already Phase 2 of Barangay Pinagsama, while our lot was on Phase 1. Gee, with all these abandoned lots that we have, I already wonder why we don't even live full-time on our own lot yet. (Most of the time, we still live in this small flat we rent for quite an exuberant rate. Weird.)

Anyway, I've just gotten around to finishing some important parts of my machine project... still got to do type my final argumentative paper for ENGLONE, plus a reaction paper for the FORMDEV Habitat Outreach and a quickie reaction on RELSONE. Sigh... no rest for the weary. :/

Updatage: I won't do the RELSONE paper. The film was crap anyway, and I didn't even understand a thing. I've already finished the ENGLONE thingy, and just waiting for the time to submit it. Crap, the bookstore in La Salle opens at 7:30, while my ENGLONE class is at 7:00! Crap. Oh well. ;)

Friday, November 14, 2003

Wonderfully chilly day...

I've got a mixed bag of feelings today. First up, it was good that typhoon 'Weng' dropped by, giving us Filipinos some break from the sweltering heat and humidity. On the other hand, the last news report I saw stated Weng has so far killed 4 people or so. Sigh.

And I was thinking of her today. Gee, baka mangyari na naman yung nangyari sa akin before. Somebody might get to her first, tell her how he really feels... and the rest, is [sob] once again history.

This I only realized only tonight, on my way home: Not only me finds her smile pretty, but others as well. Sigh. And remember that posting about everything conspiring against me lately? Well, the few reads I had over human relations and behavior is working against me: ****** is of the enchanting-girl-next-door type, which means more guys will be attracted to her than to the perfect 10s. Double darn. If this is any indication, not acting now will result to tremendous hurt later. Sigh.

Anyway, I'll be getting some shut-eye for tonight. I've still got to get up early for tomorrow's FORMDEV outreach in Habitat for Humanity - Taguig. I'm excited as hell. :D

Julian is now your friend!

I've met Julian, perhaps one of catch2t7's most eccentric people just last week, during our preparations for the pasiCATCHan. I've had a real fondness for him, as people of his personality has really intrigued me. Deviants like him, as I had initially thought, were different, and I wanted to know what set them apart from the status quo. How wrong I was when I got to befriend this guy just tonight.

It all started when we both got cooped up in SJ109. I was trying to cool myself off in the chilly breeze of the airconditioner when Julian, a natural storyteller, tried starting a small talk with me. I listened, and I was interested. Here was a guy that I had initially thought to be almost funny because of his strangeness, but made perfect sense to me once he started talking--not like 'ordinary' people I meet daily.

I then figured that Julian's case was just a bad case of misunderstanding and prejudice. I mean, even if he was almost dunce-like on how he behaved, this was perhaps the first guy i talked to today that made for some sensible discussions.

And apparently, as ******'s blockmate, it seems that he also noticed her oh-so-sweet smile; another thing that caught my eye. Sigh. Darn, it's like as if all things are conspiring against me today.



pasiCATCHan

I performed for the very first time in college... and the experience can be likened to being baptized through fire. We weren't expecting to win, but at least, we've proven that CATCH2T7 has equally-capable and talented individuals that can give the upper batches some competition.

Our performance tonight was miserable, to say the very least. I was overcome by anxiety, and even my newfound confidence was suddenly nowhere to be found the moment my feet was on the William Shaw Theater's stage. I did give it my best, and it was good: people who knew me at least said that the performance was satisfactory. No negative remarks, but I could only imagine seeing them laughing incessantly while we're on the stage, trying to save our ars*s from humiliation. :p



I've been experiencing some moments of brilliance for the past few days now, prompting me to write some serious prose and poetry. They're not finished yet, and I'll get around to posting them later today or even over the weekend.

Ciao!

Thursday, November 13, 2003

Here's a lovely song that makes somebody swoon head over heels in love... :D

Artist : Jim Brickman featuring All 4 One
Song : Beautiful (As You)

From the moment I saw you
From the moment I looked into your eyes
There was something about you I knew, I knew
That you were once in a lifetime
A treasure near impossible to find
And I know how lucky I am to have you

Cause I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away
The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you

I can't believe that I have you
I can't believe that you're here in my arms
I've been waiting a life time for you, for you
And I've dreamed about you
Pictured in my mind who I would see
But I never imagined just how beautiful you'd be

Cause I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away
(take your breath away)
The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day (any given day)
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you

I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away
(take your breath away)
The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you

From the moment I saw you
From the moment I looked into your eyes

Monday, November 03, 2003

Welcome to my new weblog. From hereon, this'll where most of my thoughts will end up.

Enjoy.