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Saturday, December 27, 2003

Happy holidays!

I know my greeting is late, but I figured most of you have already had your Christmas-greeting fix, so its not much of importance. Then again, a greeting is still a greeting, and its free so why not give lots of 'em away? :))

Anyway, my list of gifts looks as worser compared to last year's. And no, there aren't any techie/geeky stuff among them. But one interesting gift to note is in a bottle and smells sweet. Can you guess what is it?

(It's Mico's de facto scent, too.)

Yes, it's a bottle of Clinique's Happy pour homme, albeit only somewhat larger than what's on the picture.

Comments so far: Well, I've used it twice or thrice now, and I must say, it's a pretty good scent. Although lacking in sophistication compared to my scents of preference, Kenzo and Issey Miyake, Happy for Men more than makes up for it in its easygoing nature. (Gee, its like as if these perfumes are people. Pardon my personification, but you'd have to agree that perfumes *do* have character that can make or break its user.) I'm going to keep this one around, perhaps use it on a more frequent basis... overall, I like it. :)

Christmas has been very tiring and stressful for me. I mean, I haven't gotten the chance to send people gifts because of my dire financial situation (As of late, I'm currently worth less than I was last year.) Understandably, I still don't make my own money, but some people were expecting, and I felt somewhat bad not having something to give 'em this year. I even had great gift ideas... but no money. Sigh.

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

Hmmmm... it has been 10 days since last post... :)

The second term's over now. As of late, I've failed another subject, COMPRO2. (Screw that subject. ;) Anyway, I plan on taking it next term since, ugh... well, I have to and I've got no choice, if I am to continue pursuing a computer science degree in DLSU.

I feel somewhat better now, thank you. I guess its from the neato break I've had this weekend, in that silly party Dad had for the inauguration of his office for Blaze Master's Batangas operations. Had two bottles of SMB Light too... damn, that stuff was as nasty as the non-Light stuff. I wonder what the Light moniker was for, aside from the low calorie San Miguel claims.

It's almost Christmas, and I'm loving this chilly weather. I could only wish this lasts year-round... :))


Saturday, December 13, 2003

Old mushy movies with Meg Ryan in them? Call me old-fashioned but...

I like them. There, I broke it to whoever's reading this thing. (Curse you for laughing. [nasty grin] )

Anyway, this started out with my fascination for any romance flick with Meg Ryan in it. Would you imagine that? I have this fascination for that actress. I find her... quaint. That's it.

I also saw 'Sleepless in Seattle' a few minutes ago just tonight, on my PC (in the guise of testing out this new spanking but somewhat slow GeForce FX 5600 for defects, which I got after RMAing my little-wonder-of-a-card, a GeForce 4 Ti4200.) and I must say, it made for some good laughs and, ugh, dare I say it, 'kilig' moments. (See? Guys *can* also be very cheesy at times. But then again, I have always been cheesy and old-fashioned. :)

So, here I am, wondering, "Can anybody lend/point me to a copy of other recent and not-so-recent love flicks with Meg Ryan in them? I'm currently looking out for "Kate and Leopold." ;) And oh, don't bother showing me 'City of Angels' or even that sweet romance, 'You've Got Mail.' I've seen them far too many times already.

FORMDEV is now [poof]

Another term ends. Another term starts next January, along with the new faces. Gee, it only seemed yesterday that the second term started, and it has now almost ended. Along with it, another interesting course like FORMDEV.

So, what is FORMDEV anyway? In a nutshell, FORMDEV stands for Formation and Development 1. But don't be misled by the course title, this one's all about St. John Baptist de La Salle and how his life can be an influence and an inspiration to a budding Lasallian. It's important to note that it's not an academic subject, and the thing in that course that can get as close to academe as possible is a quick run-through of the life of St. La Salle. That's mostly it, that is, until you get to the part where you get to learn more than what you had expected.

FORMDEV enabled me to know some persons worth noting, such as Paul and Ben, a few of S11's facilitators. So, who are they and what did they do to deserve notice? Actually, a lot.

Ben is our somewhat silent and reserved group facilitator. He's also a mature guy, really a nice person to know and be acquainted with. But what drawn me to him was his faith. His faith in God and in Mother Mary. It somewhat shamed me, as here I am, educated in the best Christian schools in the country and still forgetful and doubtful of my own faith. He learned me to put more trust into God and be more grateful of what He has done for me. That's one lesson that I'll perhaps never forget.

Paul. Somewhat strange guy, really. But I saw how responsible he was. And it's good, as he can serve as a model for me to try to emulate. I'm sorely in need for some responsibility fix, you know. :)

This course has been perhaps one of the most worthwhile ones I had in the couple of months I've spent studying here. It enabled me to learn a lot more about myself and other people, and to nurture a deeper and more intimate relationship with the Lord. :))

Mico: Hahah. Napag-hahalataang SM ka sa pi-nost mo sa Friendster BBs... SM ka pala hah! And yet you vehemently deny it back in high school. :-p

Thursday, December 11, 2003

Ehem... I'm officially, ugh... screwed.

I did screw up my COMPRO2 finals exam earlier today. Anyway, I was already screwed into submitting an essentially worthless machine project, so yeah, I guess I deserved to get this. :|

ANYWAY... I am happy. (Weird.) As I've said before, I can get very moody at times, shifting from totally happy to totally distraught. Honestly, I'm not sure of what to think of these mood swings.

Gosh, third term na. It's so fast. My life's going way too fast for my taste. I want to slow down, take a break and rethink things through. I honestly mean that. I want to get in car, get on the road, and just take myself wherever luck takes me. It seems that something is thoroughly missing in my life; something that I've been looking for all this time. I dunno if it has something to do with my renewed faith in God, (Yes, I do have a 'reinvigorated', more intimate relationship with Him.) or my search for some female influence in my life.

Ahh... feemales. Interesting species they are, eh? :D I thought so too. Rarely I go out and never notice a pretty face or two somewhere out there. And you'll mention the almost-inevitable wise words of appreciation: "Helllllooow, nurse!" (Hahah. That made for some nasty grinning on my part back there. :))

And ******. I saw her numerous times this week already; perhaps the last week I'll have copious amounts of glances at her. Gee, I still haven't gotten around the thought of her, honest. I find her... simple. Pretty. Interesting. [me lets out a sigh.]

What's on my playlist right now: Mandy Moore Galore. [Yeah!]

--> 'I Wanna Be With You'
--> 'Crush'
--> 'It's Gonna Be Love'

Yes, it's cheesy as hell, but what the hell. That's what I want to listen to right now. :))

Ciao. Gotta continue studying for my ALGTRIG exam tomorrow.

Friday, December 05, 2003

Here's something interesting for today

Whew. I'm blogging a lot today. This should make up for the lack of updates within the past week. ;)

Whenever I'm alone, usually on my way home, I tend to think and reflect on things. I know its good that I still have time to listen to myself and to my thoughts, but I think it can be very bad too. (Actually, I dunno if its evil/bad, but here goes...)

Here's the question I had for tonight: What is the meaning of life? What is my purpose? Not your typical teen question, eh? I figured that too. It's more of rhetorical/philosophical questions that we can place alongside other issues like reason for existence and faith. A lot of questions over myself and my life. It's getting confusing. Sigh.

It's a hard one, and frankly, I need someone to discuss it with. I rule out my parents: They're too stubborn to even listen and consider what in the world I'm saying.

Anyway, among other things, Emvin tells me that I'm now part of CMSI. This, at least, confirms my hypothesis, based upon the readings I've done on human relationships and behavior. You see, ******* is not of the '10s', or the most-prettiest ones (Gee, is there such a thing? Heeheeh.), but she falls at around above-average. Typical next-girl-door type too. That makes her, ugh... very popular among guys, who have rated themselves as either 6 all the way to 8++.

And oh, CMSI = Career Mode ni ****** Inc. (Tama ba, emvin? :D Ganun pala kame karami. Heeheeh.

Coo! I'm roarin' again!

Sigh. I guess this is yet another sign that I can indeed get very moody at times. I'm so euphoric now, even if I seem to wake up from the wrong side of the bed. (Actually, I did sleep on the wrong side of my bed. You see, I sleep on a 'queen'-sized bed of my own, and when I'm too tired to even sleep properly, I just fling myself on my bed, not even minding the direction I sleep. So, in effect, I slept perpendicular to the direction of my bed. Strange, eh? I thought so. :D

Anyway, enough of the bed rambling. :))

I actually had a good day yesterday. To sum up, I didn't have any class yesterday. Let's see: No ENGLONE, skipped PHYCOM1, my COMPRO2 demo is still next week, and the last meeting we have for PEINDIV was just to submit a paper that'll serve as a part of our finals grade. Cool, no? Yeah, I thought so too.

And oh, I've been falling in love over that song that has been playing everywhere lately: King's 'Maybe'. It's actually an original of Neocolors, which I'm lucky to own a greatest hits album of theirs, so I easily listened to it without scrounging the realms of that nasty p2p network called Kazaa. But then again, I like King's version. Maybe I'll try dropping by Kazaa to get a 'sample.' ;)

Gee, the second semester is about to end. And so is the wodnerful sked I have that lets me have glances at _her_. Ralph oh ralph, why haven't you done anything about it yet?

Honestly, I dunno. Maybe I'm just using the reason "studies first" to stall things. Or I just don't want to do it because of the 1001 myriad reasons that people call 'excuses'. Or maybe not just yet. Or... never mind.

I went off to see Manila Bay's sunset yesterday. It was beautiful. I don't know about you guys, but I guess I still have that 'nature-lover' finger on me that I got from Lourdes that helps me appreciate these kinds of things. Sigh. You know what, I have this li'l fancy: to have somebody that also shares the same passion and fascination for picturesque sunsets. ;))

Morning Reads

Now this is interesting: AMD's 'new' low-end procesors (the Athlon XP/Duron range) are on a rampage! Anandtech gives you the lowdown on AMD's chepest and greatest, and why they make a relative geek like me who owns an AMD AXP-based system happy. See here: Anandtech

I'll add more as the days progresses on.


Thursday, December 04, 2003

a shout-out to nowhere

Ok, so that Spanish song is somewhat uncomprehensible. But cut me some slack here, wil ya? Have you even heard it yet? No? I thought so.

Anyway, don't mind the incessant rumbling. It's just my evil side talking to my principled one. :D

Heh. I've been acting quite a lot lately, and that's just the tip of the iceberg. I've never been so moody, confused and frustrated over things.

Sigh. The incessantries of life, as I used to say. Questions linger in the back of your head and you don't have anyone to tell it to. I hate this. Questions like looking for your meaning, the reason for existence; boy, rhetorical and philosophical questions.

Now, I don't know what prompted me to start asking this to myself, but it seems that I'm at a crucial crossroad in my life right now. It's like you were just an ordinary, carefree high school student, and now, here you are, thrust into college, with a flurry of responsiblities and stresses that keep on mounting. I'm getting tired already, and frankly, I could've used some time to prepare myself for the rigors of getting a degree. I'm so sick of it already. I'm sick of pleasing people around me. I'm sick of satisfying every expectation that people around me have. It makes me feel worthless and insipid.

I mean, what in the world am *I* doing in college? Getting a degree? Preparing for my future? Sheesh. I hate the competition, the seemingly dog-eat-dog mentality that pervades top-flight educational institutions like De La Salle. Sure, I loved it, but then you wonder, why am I going so fast for my own good?


Don't mind my incoherent mumbling. I don't make sense nowadays. :(